ǝʌıʇɔǝdsɹǝd ɹnoʎ ǝƃuɐɥɔ ✡
Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore
My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
about

Lives for: the good times, and even the bad times. Life has its up and downs but chatting it up or down, youtubing, talking on the phone 24/7, EATING, tiVOing, or just hanging in can blow all of my worries away, most of the time anyways.
loves: LATE NIGHT FREEE PHONE CALLS with the usual: therapy for the bad days and laughing all night long for the good days
THE THINGS I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT: my bffod! MICHIGAN! south coast plaza, GTALK, AIM, Tivo, pasta at pastadena, hobos--any kind, inside jokes all the time, late night talks, early morning naps in class, song lyrics, not paying attention, BLAZERS, winding roads, picturesque scenes, fresh and easy, corner bakery cafe!, coffee brea, starbucks, ted baker, anthropologie, j. crew, madewell, CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE, CHOCOALTE COVERED ALMONDS, pink paper, green paper, magnolia blossom shower gel, hand crafted cards, homemade chocolate chip cookies!, the o.c., ORANGE COUNTY OVER LA COUNTY!, CANADA! big text messaging!
5.28.2007, 10:08 PM
Memorial day wasn't too bad. Okay. So I kinda procrastinated with the Wii for the first 11 hours of the day beginning at 7a. But then Julia came over and cousin mikey was here.
Wii was fun til...
Until Julia said:" You ddint do the aerial view right."
Julia was laughing like crazy when I was oging crazyy.
haha that was funny.
So for the past two hours, I've been drawing and erasing trying to scribble out how to incorporate these stupid symbols. The result with rushing is of course scribbles and coloring of a 3rdgrader. It looks like so messed up. o_O What did I expect with all this procrastination? I remember every quarter telling myself: I'm going to start not procrastinating. But days go by and the work piles on. If it's not schoolwork, it's music work. If both are finished ( which doesn't happen. at all really.) I get on doing favors for my friends. but then I don't prioritize things. Well if i do, the high priority ones on my list or the low priority ones on the "right thing to do " side of the list.
You'd tihnk that the teachers are sick of grading our papers. Apparently, that's not true. With the golf course proj and the geo proj. haskvitz and mac seem like they love grading papers. kinda. ehh.
So this whole day has been: Asking everyone how on earth the symbols are supposed to be related to the courses. Confuseddddd. x.o then working. and bribing naiive little brother. The good thing about this project is that it requires COLORING which younger siblings can actually do.
Ack,. Work just piles up. And when you go back to do it, the result is... teared up papers, headaches, frustration, and more tearing.
5.27.2007, 11:01 PM

You friends, can make anyone's day. :)
whenever you guys talk to me, I feel like I have such an easy life. Really. I can't complain. All I have is a bunch o work. Studying, projects, pieces & a speech to memorize, music to practice..
Even so,
Just know, that I'm always here for you guys and that you can always talk to me. I'm only 11 numbers away--or 7. depending on your area code. ;)
You can only keep things bottled up for so long befor eyou explode you know.
5.26.2007, 6:16 PM

loserr
awww.
5.24.2007, 3:18 PM

You know it's one of those days when you desperately want to go back in time and relive a moment or fix something. If only you had the chance.
5.22.2007, 10:39 PM
Woah!
3 math tests in a row.
3 times to fail. :)
5.21.2007, 5:35 PM
So far. I enjoy the gray clouds. :) For now. until the sun comes again diminishing my last hopes of a wintry feel.
I've only been singing to songs for the past hour. It's really fun. I especially enjoy singing to snow patrol songs. It's kinda funny.
This song is the most fun to sing to; this song really is beautiful. it's not that it's super soft and lyricy or whatever. but it really catches on to you.
"You're All I Have"
Strain this chaos turn it into light I've got to see you one last night Before the lions take their share Leave us in pieces, scattered everywhere Just give me a chance to hold on Give me a chance to hold on Give me a chance to hold on Just give me something to hold onto It's so clear now that you are all that I have I have no fear cos you are all that I have It's so clear now that you are all that I have I have no fear cos you are all that I have You're cinematic razor sharp A welcome arrow through the heart Under your skin feels like home Electric shocks on aching bones Give me a chance to hold on Give me a chance to hold on Give me a chance to hold on Just give me something to hold onto It's so clear now that you are all that I have I have no fear cos you are all that I have It's so clear now that you are all that I have I have no fear cos you are all that I have There is a darkness deep in you A frightening magic I cling to Give me a chance to hold on Give me a chance to hold on Give me a chance to hold on Just give me something to hold onto It's so clear now that you are all that I have I have no fear now you are all that I have It's so clear now that you are all that I have I have no fear now you are all that I have
well the lyrics, i cannot relate to for it's beginning to get to me. but i love singing to it. agh i'm not going to rpess enter a billion times.
'it's beginnignt o get to me'
I only needThe compass that you gave meTo guide me onAnd it's beginning to get to meThat I know more of the stars and seaThan I do of what's in your headBarely touching in our cold bedAre you beginning to get get my pointThat all this fighting with aching jointsIt's doing nothing but tire us outNo one knows what this fight's aboutIt's so thrilling but also wrongDon't have to prove that you are so strong'Cause I can carry you on my backAfter our enemies attackI tried to tell you before I leftBut I was screaming under my breathYou are the only thing that makes senseJust ignore all this present tenseWe need to feel breathless with loveAnd not collapse under its weightI'm gasping for the air to fillMy lungs with everything I've lost.
i can't relate to the "girl" parts. but i remember when i loved this song and i played it on loop 122 times.
"Make This Go On Forever"
Please don't let this turn into something it's notI can only give you everything I've gotI can't be as sorry as you think I shouldBut I still love you more than anyone else couldAll that I keep thinking throughout this whole flightIs it could take my whole damn life to make this rightThis splintered mast I'm holding on won't save me longBecause I know fine well that what I did was wrongThe last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I couldFirst kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anythingThe weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learnedThe final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was loveWe have got through so much worse than this beforeWhat's so different this time that you can't ignoreYou say it is much more than just my last mistakeAnd we should spend some time apart for both our sakesThe last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I couldFirst kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anythingThe weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learnedThe final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was loveThe last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I couldFirst kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anythingThe weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learnedThe final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was loveAnd I don't know where to lookMy words just break and meltPlease just save me from this darkness [x2]And I don't know where to lookMy words just break and meltPlease just save me from this darkness [x2]
5.20.2007, 10:49 PM
This weekend was full of past memories. Performances are way more fun with angela bi. she's the most outgoing person I know. She makes those dim piano competitions soundlike pep rallies. :) She's cool 8)
And on the way back from pomona college, I saw this house. Where my best friend used to live below belgate. And we'd always carpool everyday.. Oh those were the days.
5.19.2007, 10:47 PM

South Coast Plaza makes life worth living. :)
Corner Bakery is delicious. Pasta, crispy sandwiches, ceasar salad. OOOOH. Soo good.
Ted Baker is my new favorite brand.
I'm not complaining today for a change. x_o
5.17.2007, 1:15 PM
early escape day
At least that's what haskvitz calls it
Mmm. I planned (hum. what a word) to start on homework and finish everything. So far, the only thing I've done is engorge myself in Coffee Break takeout. But it's really good.
I'll start on some work.. sooner or later..
5.16.2007, 9:04 PM

From today's standpoint, yesterday was just a gigantic blur.
Cello was fun today. ORCHestra has really changed my life--for the better for all the part not most of the part. Hrmmmm.
Well it seems so long ago when we first started school, and were actually high achieving students. But we slacked off. Not really "we" more like "I." But what can I do now?
For one, I plan to start the haskvitz golf course project tomorrow. For sure. HA. Plan, what an ambigious word. Sure you can plan all you want. It's not like you're actually going to do it. ;)
I miss New Jersey.
5.15.2007, 10:09 PM
Could this day get any worse?
Most of the times, when we're having bad days, we blame someone--usually our parents. But I blame myself and no I am not emo.
The school day was not at all that bad really. Sure it was boring and I was tired as always. And stressed because of the golf course project and the tests and the studying and whatever.
Well. Afterschool, I went to hte library. which i haven't done in a long while. I haven't read anything really so I got a bunch o books then dropped them or something. And I walked back to Suzanne. Hitched a ride from Julia and came home. Dumped my books on my desk. So far so good. Kinda. I start tutoring my bro math and it's horrible. REALLY.. I have n0 patience with that kid. And he's accusing me and insulting me. So i give it a break and start on Haskvitz summaries. I chat awhile. Then I play piano. It's already 7 pm by then and I have this math test tomorrow. Ehh Not good at all. So I eat, watch foster's/ I'm okay right. Then I play cello . It's 8:45 now and so I decide to teach bryan. So it gets me mad again because nothing ever stays in his brainless head. x_X So I start crying over the stress. I really don't care if anyone sees me cry so I cry really for no reason but for the sake that I'm sad, mad, and stressed. So i spend another hour trying to teach slope-intercept form. by 9:50 I give in, and take a shower. and the worst thing happens. Because the cleaners came today, my shower head was pointing sideways at me so I turn it on and a blast of cold water shoots at me. And I stand there with the shower head now spraying at the floor and watch this puddle form. I finally brave myself to go and fix the shower head. Thank goodness for walk in closets bc if i didn't have one, I would bump into the closet. well the shower Resulted in wet jeans and jacket. But whatever. I'm just so tired right now.
And I come back to my computer after my lovely shower and anne who calls me old IMs me banana phone from potter puppet pals and it just cracks me up. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JKf7pPj6T7M
I call Anne a couple of times. She jokes aorund I joke around. She calls me a bad tutor cause half the time i'm yelling at bryan. Oh man..
Okay. So I made the day bad for me because I was tired, stressed, mad. Nothing bad happened at school. I didn't reccieve any tests with F's--yet, no teacher really yelled at me. Although during sci vocab quiz for core i put center of the sun and mr. e was like: I thought you were the bright type. but that was funny. And everything was really boring.
Even my friend who never really notices anything. he IMed me and said: I saw you walking to the library and you looked so tired.
Always tired. :)
Thank goodness for early out day this thursday but I prob will be spending that afternoon trying to memorize 10 pieces for piano. FUNNNNNNN Along with the regionals this weekend. And cello. ha. that sonata rhythm is killing me. back and forth from triplets to 8th notes. what do they think i am? a musical genius?! Blahhh.
End of the year. I don't want to go to knott's
I better go studay for math test. And start reading or something.
I didn't exactly type out everything bc I forget things while I'm typing. harharhar. Maybe I'll type about this dreadful day later.
5.13.2007, 8:05 PM

Fun. This weekend was pure fun.
I've been missing out on way too many things because of lessons, studying for tests, projects, volunteer work.
But my cousins, uncle, and twin nephews came over from SF. The twins are the cutests babies ever. :) Little B says the cutest things ever and makes the cutest facial expressions.
We celebrated my cousin's BDAY and Mother's Day together. We played Wii, flew kites, and hung out. Best days for a really long time.
I miss them already. :( Six more months til Thanksgiving.
5.04.2007, 9:46 PM

Now that testing's over.
Projects are being piled.
Deadlines are coming up.
The end seems too near.
Life's just too short.
Sometimes, it just seems too long.