ǝʌıʇɔǝdsɹǝd ɹnoʎ ǝƃuɐɥɔ ✡
Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore
My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
about
Lives for: the good times, and even the bad times. Life has its up and downs but chatting it up or down, youtubing, talking on the phone 24/7, EATING, tiVOing, or just hanging in can blow all of my worries away, most of the time anyways.
loves: LATE NIGHT FREEE PHONE CALLS with the usual: therapy for the bad days and laughing all night long for the good days
THE THINGS I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT: my bffod! MICHIGAN! south coast plaza, GTALK, AIM, Tivo, pasta at pastadena, hobos--any kind, inside jokes all the time, late night talks, early morning naps in class, song lyrics, not paying attention, BLAZERS, winding roads, picturesque scenes, fresh and easy, corner bakery cafe!, coffee brea, starbucks, ted baker, anthropologie, j. crew, madewell, CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE, CHOCOALTE COVERED ALMONDS, pink paper, green paper, magnolia blossom shower gel, hand crafted cards, homemade chocolate chip cookies!, the o.c., ORANGE COUNTY OVER LA COUNTY!, CANADA! big text messaging!
6.28.2007, 7:06 PM
Free Sushi!
OH how inside jokes are the first signs of summer. ;) HAHA Falling asleep in classes, firemen, squirrels, and fruit markets. They all have SUMMER writen all over them. Oh how the school year just seems too far behind.
Hm. tests tests and more tests. snacks hanging out with annie, ivy, darren, and eric are the best. We just gooof off. We jack eric's money and fool around. and man darren can speak good chinese. Although when he speaks chinese, he's often insulting the person right next to him. It's funny, but kind of mean. Being compared to a vegetable is not a nice thing. Ahh but still this has been a pretty good week. The lunch lines is where all the action is going ooooooon! foood too.
A average --LOW A AVERAGE. lol--in collins. :) Well at least accoridng to my calculations which probably is not that reliable.
Camping tomorrow. 3 days without indoor plumbing ! Yay or Nay?
6.24.2007, 8:03 AM
Follow your heart but bring your brain with you.
How many times have we all done something without thinking? Probably more than our mistakes. Hm. Myabe not.
Time changes everything.That's what people say; it's not true. Doing things changes things. Not doing things leaves things exactly as they were. -House
6.22.2007, 8:03 AM
The thing about an online blogger is that you can never lose it. You can kind of relive the memories.
As I was reading through the endless entries this morning, I thought to myself, "Wow. I actually thought like that?"
Gregory And The Hawk Boats And Birds Lyrics
If you be my star
I'll be your sky
you can hide underneath me
and come out at night
when I turn jet black
and you show off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine
but you can skyrocket away from me
and never come back
if you find another galaxy far from here
with more room to fly
just leave me your stardust to remember you by
if you be my boat
I'll be your sea a depth of pure blue
just to probe curiosity ebbing
and flowing and pushed by a breeze
I live to make you free
I live to make you free
but you can set sail to the west
if you want to and past the horizon
till I can't even see you far from here
where the beaches are wide
just leave me your wake to remember you by
if you be my star
I'll be your sky
you can hide underneath me
and come out at night
when I turn jet black
and you show off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine
but you can skyrocket away from me
and never come back
if you find another galaxy far from here
with more room to fly
just leave me your stardust to remember you by
stardust to remember you by
6.20.2007, 5:41 PM
"Paint the Silence" officially has more than 1000 hits. I wonder where I get the hits from. Not like anyone reads my blogspot. Brings back the good times when The OC wasn't cancelled. Speaking --or typing of the oc, it's almost going to be on on Soapnet!!
History is so memory based. -_- Too bad I don't have a big enough brain. 80 on the test. Could have been worse I guess.
Agh. I better studaaay
But watching oc couldn't hurt could it?
Okay. It will hurt.
Yesterday's season finale was soo breathtaking. When Marissa shot Trey. OMG. And then I hoped that Trey would stay dead but he awoke from his coma. -_-;
The OC. Pretty people. Pretty messed up.
AHAHHAA. that's theirmotto on soapnet
6.12.2007, 10:37 AM
According to a certain program, Michelle is now doing a guest performance. o_o
But I'm not telling you when/where or there won't be any room for the VIPs. ;)
-IS
6.11.2007, 1:39 PM
Intervals. You know after your birthday. You'd silently think to yourself: It's *insert # of days here* days after my bday. It'd be funny. Now I think. It's four days after graduation and I still can't get over it. Sooner or later, we all will get over it. Like taht time my cousin was getting married and was moving up to SF. And it was saddest thing and I was mourning it and during the wedding I cried so much, but now I'm happy for him. Or that time when my other cousin left LA for New Jersey. We'd cry together, host a marathon, but now, she visits every so often and I go there every so often and it just works out. Or that time when we thought middle school would be the worst thing on earth, but it turned out to be the best thing that has ever happened to me. And when we graduate from high school, we'll think that high school is the best thing that has ever happened to us.
But now, I just can't help think about intervals. how long will i be counting off the days after graduation? I guess not for too long. But still. I can't help but think.
6.10.2007, 8:24 PM
Three days after graduation. All I have accomplished is finishing two legally blondes, went to the ortho, partied @ jaimie's, and finally memorized my ten pieces--sorta. And still I cant help but think about middle school and cry. :( I don't know. It feels not so long ago when we entered middle school and now we're odne with it. what?!
Only thing I'm looking forward to is nancy drew.
All I do at home is watch movies, sulk, and eat. The latter is the solution to alll problems. Hm.
6.08.2007, 8:53 PM
Post graduation thoughts:
Whenever I think of something that happened yesterday and promotion, tears would start.
And then this is what hit me when I went back to check i keep bookmarks for good times sake. good times. lol. not exactly but it made me cry because at the beginning of the year, we thought haskvitz would all fail us but he turned out to be the coolest teacher ever.
http://www.ikeepbookmarks.com/browse.asp?account=47745
It really is the memory of my teachers that haunts me the most. In the book, Mrs. Hee started off with: Congratulations on your promotion to high school. And so the tears started. :(
And when I Looked out there on promotion day, I saw everyone and it made me cry. We're through. Done. Never coming back again to this place that we first thought of as the scariest place on earth but soon realized it to be the happiest place on earth. Through all the homeworks, projects, bad grades, school is home. Haha. reminds me of hogwarts/hp.
I regret not taking more picutres with friends bc we were all crying so hard and just hugging each other. And my dad rushed me to leave. >:(
6.07.2007, 12:12 PM
Middle school is over. And I Just can't accept it. Tears. Hugs. People weren't asahmed of crying and it actually felt good. It gives me chills to think that we're going on to high school. I can't bear to part Suzanne. When we graduated 6th or 7th grade, we'd be okay. A little heartbroken, but not tearbroken. Oh my god. And hwen i think back to the time when I first got my schedule in 7th grade, I was talking to Mrs. L. And this year. I wonder how I got my schedule. Oh yes. MPR. Hanging out with leadership. I remember the fear of being in Haskvitz's class. The year twisted and turned and now there's a clear path. The ceremony was beautiful beyond belief but so tearful. I couldn't even take pictures. but i guess all of those memories will remain trapped in my head forever. And I don't mind.
I can't live without you guys for a whole week and I certainly cannot live without Mrs. Hee for three months. OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
We're done
Finished
And I feel way too sad to start practicing piano even when i have a lesson tonite.
I love you guys. And I know I'll see most of you again in summer school, but I just cant believe we'll never actually sit in another Suzanne classroom to attend class. Sure, people say: Oh high school is so much fun. But omg. suzanne. :(
Now I dearly want to go back to school, rewind the whole year and start over and actually APPRECIATE each moment.
6.06.2007, 8:20 PM
For the past four days, I honestly felt relieved of homework. Of course then I had to play my instruments, but hey I could live with that. Today was just too sad and tomorrow will be sadder.
I guess a part of me knows I got to move on, but part of me s ays: Flunk. STay in middle school. But that's impossible I guess.
So today afterschool, I got some 6th grade teacher's AUTOGRAPH. Wooo. Mr. Welch is retiring and i'll never forget what he said to me. Of course I was crying so I had to quickly say goodbye. Oh my god. It's really ending and typing this makes my eyes watery--yet again. Well the saddest part was when Mrs. Hee gave me this box. And this is no ordinary box. Out of all of the teachers I've ever had, I never kept in touch with them for three years. Now Mrs. Hee, really inspired me in 6th grade. I was quiet and Anne said I looked all mean because I would never smile in 6th grade. I was basically scared because I transferred from a school in diamond bar and going to walnut well. not so many people I knew. So all 6th grade year, I remember me focusing on school and never working past 10 P and always spending hours on projects. But I did have really good friends.. that I talked about homework with. I swear everyday in the morning when we got to school, we'd pull out our homeworks and compare answers. blahhhh blahhh blah. And then 7th grade came around the corner. Even more projects. More coloring. New friends, new bonds. Okay. well back to 6th grade. By the end, I really became more open I guess. I wouldn't always have a frown. haaaaaaaaaa. Well Mrs. Hee was always there to talk and just by saying "hi mrs. hee" to her when I saw her really made my worries go. So when she handed me the box. I wanted to cry. BUt I couldn't do it in front of her or the room would flood. And we had this orchestra party today and my slideshow got messed up. x_X Well. I opened the gift and inside was the book: Bartlett's words to live by and I Just cried and cried. thank goodness the lights were off. And oh my god. It was the most beautiful gift i ever received--yeah and it's a book. o_O---and that's when it really hit me how much I'm going to miss Suzanne. Well after the party was over, I walked over to the library bc my mom was doing her hair at the salon and didn't pick me up til 4 P. So I take out my book and bc I just know im going to cry bc I'm a little emotional. not like cutting.. -_- cause that's lame. But just sensitive I guess. I stay outside or the library people would kick me out. Well. So I begin reading it and i start crying like crazy and then I called Anne and she was crying too and it was really pointless but totally necessary.
And this quote really made me laugh and sad at the same time. (Not bipolar)
"In Italy for 30 years under the Borgias they had warfare, terror, murder, bloodshed, but they produced Michelangelo, Leonardo da Vinci, and the Renaissance. IN Switzerland they had brotherly love, they had 500 years of democracy and peace. And what did they produce? The cukoo-clock. " -Orson Welles.
Okay. So i'm mostly mourning. Aghhhhh I'm just going to miss middle school so much. =(
6.03.2007, 5:31 PM
Yesterday.. all my troubles seemed so far away
Suddenly..
oh yesterday came suddenly..
Hrm. Tomorrowwwwwwwwwwwwwww
We're going to knott's. why not dland?
HAHAA. Anne's dropping off this cardigan and is going to leave it behind my plants. Interesting.
Oh. last weekend of middle schooll. only seven hours left.
I spent 80 min yesterday talking to anne about lamo stuff. Good thing cell phones are free after 9! Wait. minutes are free? What happens on my bill?
Lol.
6.02.2007, 10:33 PM
A weekend without any homework. I never knew this day would come.
And the year's going to end now.
Brea today was mixed up. Cafe was oh so good as always. Uhhh but finding that stupid cardigan was the most anooying experience ever.
WOWOWOWOWOOWOWWWWWWWWWWWW
All these events lined up for next week and no hw. =]
THe national guild auditions are the only thing left and this year, i don't have to hold a bloody recital. That's an up. The down. I haven't exactly memorized half of my pieces yet.
o.o
