ǝʌıʇɔǝdsɹǝd ɹnoʎ ǝƃuɐɥɔ ✡
Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore
My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
about

Lives for: the good times, and even the bad times. Life has its up and downs but chatting it up or down, youtubing, talking on the phone 24/7, EATING, tiVOing, or just hanging in can blow all of my worries away, most of the time anyways.
loves: LATE NIGHT FREEE PHONE CALLS with the usual: therapy for the bad days and laughing all night long for the good days
THE THINGS I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT: my bffod! MICHIGAN! south coast plaza, GTALK, AIM, Tivo, pasta at pastadena, hobos--any kind, inside jokes all the time, late night talks, early morning naps in class, song lyrics, not paying attention, BLAZERS, winding roads, picturesque scenes, fresh and easy, corner bakery cafe!, coffee brea, starbucks, ted baker, anthropologie, j. crew, madewell, CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE, CHOCOALTE COVERED ALMONDS, pink paper, green paper, magnolia blossom shower gel, hand crafted cards, homemade chocolate chip cookies!, the o.c., ORANGE COUNTY OVER LA COUNTY!, CANADA! big text messaging!
3.31.2008, 11:40 PM
Some kidn of destined fate somehwere somehow makes things so much harder to figure out, to think about, to achieve. Bad to worse. It happens everyday. But I dont know. I think maybe we're given these situations to make the best out of it, to learn from it. If you want something, it's not going to be handed down to you. Some fate out there gives us the opportunity instead. So the next time opportunity comes down knocking on your door, you might as well answer it.
3.27.2008, 5:17 PM

so long, so long.
on top of my list.
1.FOOD THERAPY (24/7)
2.RETAIL THERAPY (starts 3/30)
3.26.2008, 6:40 PM

Wednesday (WED-NES-DAY) is for meltdowns! I'VE NEVER BEEN SO INFURIATED IN MY LIFE. I'VE NEVER SCREAMED AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS. I'VE NEVER COUGHED SO HARD AFTER SCREAMING. I'VE NEVER CRIED UNCONTROLLABLY AFTER SCREAMING. I'VE NEVER SCREAMED WHEN I'M SICK BECAUSE IT GETS WORSE ANYWAYS, BUT THEN I TALKED MYSELF INTO THAT IT DIDN'T REALLY MATTER IF I GOT SICKER ANYWAYS. I'VE NEVER JUST LET IT ALL OUT! BUT I DID. AND THEN IN THE END, I REALIZED IT DOES MATTER. EVERYTHING MATTERS. and it felt pretty damn good.
1. ORCH is just lame, stupid, obnnoxious, BARBANT, STUPID, AND DEAD TO ME. USELESS HOW CAN
!@&*#)#$ GO ON AND MOCK ABOUT GRADES?! I JUST WANT TO SLAP YOU! HELLO, ever heard of GPA, which is the key to college?! it's not a joke to most people. >:( HUH? ORCH IS PART OF OUR GPA which by the way goes on our hm let me think. permanent record. and guess what, it's PERMANENT. shocker there. GOD, YOU BABBLING BAFOON. SHUT UP& (drive).. no.. JUST SHUT UP!
2. My parents really never understand me. I can't cry or they'll think i'm "overemotional or being too dramatic." but at least today my mom understood..after awhile anyways. and i'm thankful for that. my mom is there for me, she really is. she's my best friend. :)
3. I'm still way to attached to middle school (that's where the crying part comes in) I can't get over it. I try really hard to like WALNUT HIGH. but it's unlikeable. I tried to change a part of me , i tried changing my attitude, but in the end, it just doesn't fit. After seeing mrs. hee, mr. haskvitz, mr. cusson, and mr. gifford, yea, i'm lost. i'm really lost.
Therapy?/ maybe that's what i need.
3.25.2008, 9:06 PM

And when it rains,
On this side of town it touches, everything.
Just say it again and mean it.
We don't miss a thing.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And convinced yourself that
It's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore
And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?
And when it rains,
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away,
From all of the ones who love you,
From everything.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And you'll sleep 'til May
And you'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore
And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
And oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay just long enough to explain?
Take your time.
Take my time.
Take these chances to turn it around. (take your time)
Take these chances, we'll make it somehow
And take these chances to turn it around. (take my...)
Just turn it around.
Oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh I need an ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?
You can take your time, take my time.
3.21.2008, 9:38 PM

day one without bryan.
it's pretty damn quiet in this house. tiff & i went over to anne's to do our eng and math proj. and we did do our projects.. kinda sorta. LOL. we eventually finished. we watched "it started with a kiss" AND nancy drew AND disturbia.
HAHA Nancy drew was even scarier than disturbia. My scream set off a chain reaction. HILARIOUS. now disturbia is freaking me out! i cant go to a dark place without being paranoid. :O and then right when it was getting good, we heard the doorbell ring and we were all like SHH! BE QUIET! and we crept to the door and we saw this mexican guy and made sure he walked away after awhile and then closed all the blinds. mmm. yea. GOOD FRIDAY WAS GREAT!
3.20.2008, 7:21 PM

2 and a half years for this day. I GOT MY BRACES OFF! Top ones at least and I LOVE MY TEETH. hahaa all throughout dinner, i was like: ahaha no braces. my teeth are so beautifullll. :)
HM. so tomorrow i got a piano class and cello class tomorrow. and later off to anne's for english proj and math proj. The current dilemma right now is if tiffany can come.. and we're keeping our fingers crossed!
Bonne weekend!
3.18.2008, 5:38 PM
Laptops are pretty fun. My comp died sooo the laptop is pretty cool i guess. can't complain.
during extended block, we did that gayass star testing chart to "IMPROVE" scores and set goals, blah blah blah. i had to get my scores from the district office bc apparently, the office didn't have my 8th grade report for apps for ap classes. so much trouble and trips to the office. and today they give me my 8th grade scores. how. convenient. o_o
after school, i went to kaiser permanente in anaheim and the people there are very nice. hopefully, i can get the gift shop shift from 8-12 on saturday mornings so my mom and i can shop at south coast afterwards ..hahaa. i'm just scared of the health check. I HATE SHOTS. :( Worst experience ever. I remember when i got a shot in taiwan, i was crying for 5 minutes. Well, i'm really excited about this volunteer position because I can actually get some work experience now. I mean, in school all those clubs and everything, it's such a hassle b/c you can't do stuff when you want to. WELL, afterwards, on the way back, we went to trader joe's to buy some PASTA ingredients. yummy! AND ONE TREE HILL IS ON TONIGHT :] i'll prob watch it on CW video but who knows. I actually don't have a lot of hw.. kinda sorta.
3.15.2008, 11:17 PM
SOOO we (tiffany, anne & me) continued "it started with a kiss" today but before we had fun, i went to math tutor and practiced piano bc tomorrow i have this stupid recital. :[ garearearsdhfhsdjkfh. anyways, so the drama is getting reallylll really good. the genius is so CUTE. and the plot is really funny. SO we were all watching it, eating flavor-blasted goldfish and chex mix and minute maid lemonade starting around 3~6:40. and we left for the fiddler on the roof play. it was FREEZING. the play was pretty good i guess. its just that the fiddler plot sucked and was really boring. the acting was great, but during intermission, we decided to leave bc tiffany and i were starstrucked by the GENIUS . :) SO we went back and ate chicken noodle soup and watched the drama.. and all this time, my mom thought i was doing a "FRENCH PROJECT." mmhmm. soo that's how this fine saturday went. FUN, FOOD, and FRIENDS. :] it can't get anny better than that. i hate tomorrow.
3.11.2008, 8:40 PM

I finally know what it's like to ROFL.
This fine cold morning, me & tiffany went over to anne's and we started watching the asian dramaaa "it started with a kiss." i normally don't watch asian dramas, bc i love to watch american dramas cause the guys actually look like guys. haha but the genius guy in the drama is FINEEE. at first, i was like eurghh. but after you keep seeing and watching him, he just gets cuter and cuter. the plot is hilarious! well we got it because anne was our translator cause the chinese subtitles fllyyyy and my chinese is ..below average..very below average. and the genius's mom. when i saw her in that frilly apron, i literally started laughing so hard that i fell on the flooor and was craughing. :) HAHA. SOOO we walked to hell school around 9:25 and we saw serena's car and her mom gave us a ride. or we would've been late because we walk realllly slow.
AND we're doing it again tomorrow! YEA!
3.10.2008, 7:47 PM


we stick together forever and ever.
HAHAso tomorrow we got a movie partay planned at anne's at freakin 6 or 7 am in the morning. we're either goign to watch a scary movie or a comma dee AND anne's going to show me and tiffany that japanese hottie whose name is too complicated to type out. but according to teeresa, that boy is "SO FINE"
SO DIVINE. :) haha. AND WED. i don't know what i'm going to do wed... we'll plan something tomorrow.. lollollol.
my fav music right now: mushaboom by the feist feat. the postal service.
enough about me, what about you. yea that was a rhetorical question.
OH YEAH and today during p.e., we lost a good friend, mr. volleyball who was suddenly murdered by a black SUV. may mr. volleyball rest in peace. HAHA so the story behind it was that desiree hit it over the big fence towards suzanne and then we were all staring at it saying, "COME BACK!." and this car just runs over it "POP!" HAHA snap cuhhrackle and pop.. and we saw the car slow down so the driver must have thought he/she popped the tire. LMAO :) K, so i don't have too much to complain about today...
lalallaa mushabooom
3.08.2008, 7:06 PM

6 weeks grade reports. i'm going for a big fat dive that won't end til june.
RIDICULOUS!
eng 1 h: A-
alg 2 h: A-
bio h: B+
p.e.: A
french: A
cadd: A+
orch: A
i have to stay nerdy. really nerdy.
, 8:28 AM
01. i live on a corner. CIRCUITs over CORNERs
02. i have a body piercing.
03. i can't paint.
04. i like scrabble.
05. i like scattergories.
06. i love cookies and cream chocolate. for sure!
07. i love summer.
08. i live by the ocean.
09. i've tasted play-doh.
10. my house has 4+ bedrooms.
11. i have a simple street name.
12. i lose things often.
13. i sometimes like to read.
14. my cell phone is black.
15. i love the sims.
16. i like tilly and the wall.
17. i've never heard of tilly and the wall.
18. i've been to the mall this week.
19. i am hardly ever home.
20. i'm paranoid of sharks in the water.
21. i've been to new york. IHEARTNY
22. i'm kind of looking forward to school.
23. i love back-to-school shopping.
24. my garbage is full.
25. i don't do my own laundry.
26. i have a dog.
27. at one time i had a hamster.
28. someone has stolen money from me.
29. i like crayons.
30. i like nicole richie.
31. i like vodka.
32. i own a dane cook cd.
33. i've tried to solve a rubik's cube.
34. it's hot out.
35. i have an air conditioner in my room.
36. i love johnny depp.
37. i have seen pirates 2.
38 ...more than once. haha lorenzen
39. i have a gameboy color.
40. i have nintendo 64.
41. i watch family guy.
42. i brush my teeth more than twice a day.
43. i have no interest in sports.
44. i play the guitar.
45. i play the piano. ilovepiano..most of the time.
46. i have naturally wavy hair.
47. i have naturally straight hair.
48. i have naturally curly hair.
49. i have gotten a killer tan.
50. i like subway sandwiches.
51. something is bothering me right now.
52. i have a pool.
53. i wish i had a pool.
54. speaking of pools, sometimes i like to play pool.
55. i am looking forward to a vacation this summer.
56. i am going on vacation with my family.
57. i am going on vacation with a friend's family.
58. i am bringing a friend with me on vacation.
59. i like cereal.
60. i am watching tv.
61. i want a tattoo.
62. i want a tattoo in memory of someone.
63. i have no concept of time.
64. so far this survey is bad.
65. so far this survey is good.
66. so far this survey is aiight.
67. i have plans to go on a boat tomorrow.
68. it is supposed to be hot tomorrow
.69. i am growing sick of the heat.
70. i have a lot of jewelry.
71. i am a good speller.
72. i have bought a bootleg movie.
73. i have straight teeth. when i get my braces off in 2 weeks ..top ones at least(!)
74. where is my retainer?
75. i like hello kitty.
76. i like the disney channel.
77. i like my middle name.
78. i know what i'm gonna name my kids.
79. my room is a mess. a cuhhrzy mess!
80. i have gone to sleepaway camp.
81. i am going to camp this summer.
82. i love my friends.
83. i like cherry-flavored things.
84. i like grape-flavored things.
85. i am lactose intolerant.
86. i keep a journal. .. diary ;)
87. i don't see much of my family.
88. technically, it's early morning.
89. i love to buy clothes.
90. i have an adopted family member.
91. i watch the simple life.
92. i have been very busy lately.
93. i can't wait till i get my driver's license.
94. i have a driver's license.
95. i like to light candles and incense and such.
96. i am going to sleep after this survey.
97. i am going to take a shower after this survey.
98. something else.
99. i have a boat.
100. i love tubing.
101. i have a jetski.
102. i have been camping.
103. i have a lot of decorative bowls and boxes..
104. but not much to put in them.
105. i am multitasking right now.
106. i've had a free ride in the back of an ambulance before.
107. i've been wearing sunglasses lately.
108. it's absolutely scorching.
109. i don't like to eat fast food.
110. i find myself eating it anyway.
115. i've been on a cruise before.
116. i travel a lot.
117. i am wearing pjs.
118. i have a trampoline.
119. i've recently had a haircut.
120. yellow is one of my favorite colors.
121. my birthday is in the winter.
122. i have a lot of pillows on my bed.
123. my bed is not made.
124. my bedroom walls are purple.
125. i have changed a lot.
126. i have two holes in each ear.
127. i save movie tickets.
128. at one time i collected pokemon cards.
129. i have a local target.
130. i have seen the wedding singer.
131. my family has 3 cars.
132. i like chinese food. sick of it! french or japanese
133. i wear a lot of beaters.
134. i like lipgloss.
135. i straighten my hair a lot.
136. i am 14, 15, or 16.
137. i don't like a lot of mainstream music.
138. i'd love to have a pet monkey.
139. i hope i'm filthy stinking rich one day.
140. i've gone on a school trip overnight.
141. i like parties.
142. i have plans for tomorrow.
143. i like neopets.
144. thank god it's summer.
145. i like dunkin doughnuts.
146. i like long car rides.
147. i get carsick.
148. this survey was bad.
149. this survey was good.
150. this survey was aiight.
3.06.2008, 7:55 PM

a: If you are what you say you are,
a: a superstar,
a:have no fear the crowd is here.
a:and the lights are on.
a:and they want to show-ow-ow.
m: the camera's here
and the microphones
want to know-ow-ow
SINGING ON AIM beats doing the LIT DEVICE or studying for a MATH TEST.
3.05.2008, 10:28 PM
success. 4 way calls :)
OMG we spring forward on sunday? gaaaad. south coast on sunday . fiddler play next sat
more time, si vous plait?
3.04.2008, 10:17 PM
aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
COLDPLAY :( COLDPLAY :( COLD PLAY:(
, 10:13 PM

j: "Michelle, stop it with the coldpla already. you're making me feel sad."
m: "AGHHHH. everything makes you feel sad."
j: "no, coldplay concert tickets would make me feel happy."
m: "thanks for stating the obvious"
j: "no problem. are you listening to fix you?"
rhetorical ?. don't even want to think about it.
ME AND JONACHANG NEED COLDPLAY CONCERT TICKETS :)
3.03.2008, 7:48 PM

CMCMCM RESULTS: I'm very pleased.
5+ Convention dude!
Excelllenteyyy for everything!
93 on theory
SO I WILL NEVER EVER EVER EVER HAVE TO DO ONE OF THOSE EVER AGAIN!
the evaluator said i am TALENTED. :)
I'm goin got stay happpy for a week!
To panel i goooo!