ǝʌıʇɔǝdsɹǝd ɹnoʎ ǝƃuɐɥɔ ✡
Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore
My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
about

Lives for: the good times, and even the bad times. Life has its up and downs but chatting it up or down, youtubing, talking on the phone 24/7, EATING, tiVOing, or just hanging in can blow all of my worries away, most of the time anyways.
loves: LATE NIGHT FREEE PHONE CALLS with the usual: therapy for the bad days and laughing all night long for the good days
THE THINGS I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT: my bffod! MICHIGAN! south coast plaza, GTALK, AIM, Tivo, pasta at pastadena, hobos--any kind, inside jokes all the time, late night talks, early morning naps in class, song lyrics, not paying attention, BLAZERS, winding roads, picturesque scenes, fresh and easy, corner bakery cafe!, coffee brea, starbucks, ted baker, anthropologie, j. crew, madewell, CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE, CHOCOALTE COVERED ALMONDS, pink paper, green paper, magnolia blossom shower gel, hand crafted cards, homemade chocolate chip cookies!, the o.c., ORANGE COUNTY OVER LA COUNTY!, CANADA! big text messaging!
7.31.2008, 6:19 PM

Another wasted day, actually another wasted week.
3 hours, oh just kill me now.
I want to go out, but in the end, madre gets mad, yet when i think about it, when i'm home she gets mad too, so might as well have some fun and then let her yell at me. so depressing,,,,
cable can't even cheeer me up
just those late night phone calls.
AHH i don't want to go
although i do like sushi. a lot. and taiwanese food. a lot a lot.
7.28.2008, 7:04 PM

i like gummie bears.
i can't live without them.
i dont do anything anymore cept play piano
3 freakin hours everyday.
so i can go shopping.
shopping is always my motivation
until my thumbs and pinkies hurt
from that stupid chopin etude
with all of those stupid octaves
and my mom's always yelling
for the stupidest reasons.
because i am really unproductive.
and i get all sad & mad
but then i turn to my gummie bears
and read that stupid book.
and then complain about the stupid book.
and watch HBO.
until i rot
Bc i am a couch POTATO
and talk on the phone.
with serena
and jonachang
complaining about doing nothing
and eat cake.
everyday.
i need to get out.
and i eat more gummie bears
and i'm bringing more on vaca
but i don't want to gooooo...
7.23.2008, 4:17 PM

The work, the sleepy mornings, the crazy times during snack that we have is all coming to an end. One step closer to vacation, and one step closer to msising ht eolympics. :(
The up, 93%, so i'm safe! :)
7.20.2008, 7:33 PM

Really, I wouldn't have any other way.
The Up, REALIZATION # 12u38012312
The Down, Nordstrom sale postponed to next week at south coast
ADMIST all of this frenzy I forgot all of the good things in life. Like tutoring theory and doing ear training and sight reading with all the little kids who just never seem to stay still, just doing what I do best, procrastinating and putting things off to do something fun. Like prank calling stores and restaurants and talking with that crazy asian accent just because. Laughing, just because we're here, so might as well make the best out of it. The HBO this weekend and all the laughs I had with my bro and my besties of course. Sure, all of this studying is driving me up the wall, but really, I should just take the time to think about the good things, bc it's those little things that turn life upside down.
7.18.2008, 6:27 PM

NORDSTROM anniversary SALE! Tomorrow!
And next SATURDAY to celebrate the end of summer hellschool :)
7.16.2008, 6:57 PM
Down Asian Lane
"ALEX'S HOUSE MOM.
WHAT?
ALEX. ALEX'S HOUSE.
you're at who what?
ALEX. ALEX'S HOUSE
Who's that? How do you spell his name?
A-L-E-X
Is that a boy?
Yes. Come home immediately!"
7.14.2008, 2:36 PM
Darren says:
wat a bitch
Darren says:
pms!
michellin / we're all waiting for something says:
she's a big bad scary bitch!!
Darren says:
lmfao!
Darren says:
NOTICE
Darren says:
MICHELLE USES
Darren says:
ADJECTIVES
Darren says:
BIG
Darren says:
AND BAD
Darren says:
AND SCARY
Darren says:
BITCH
Darren says:
michellin / we're all waiting for something says:
mhm, i can give her even more insulting adjectives but she's not worth it
michellin / we're all waiting for something says:
haha
Darren says:
lol
Darren says:
now im in my room
Darren says:
notice i can transition really fast
Darren says:
michellin / we're all waiting for something says:
superdarren! can fly at the speed of light
Darren says:
seriously
Darren says:
lol
7.13.2008, 7:03 AM

Time. We're all racing against time. Whether or not we have too much time or time seems to be rushing past us, gone in no time. I can't sleep, because I'm in that race. And I have yet to find out what I'm racing for.
I don't want to leave...
I want to stay home, my safehaven.
7.10.2008, 7:58 PM

Take all my vicious words
And turn them into something good
Take all my preconceptions
And let the truth be understood
Take all my prized possessions
Leave only what I need
Take all my pieces of doubt
And let me be what's underneath
Courage is when you're afraid,
But you keep on moving anyway
Courage is when you're in pain,
But you keep on living anyway
We all have excuses why
Living in fear something in us dies
Like a bird with broken wings
It's not how high he flies,
But the song he sings
Courage is when you're afraid,
But you keep on moving anyway
Courage is when you're in pain,
But you keep on living anyway
It's not how many times you've been knocked down
It's how many times you get back up
Courage is when you've lost your way,
But you find your strength anyway
Courage is when you're afraid
Courage is when it all seems grey
Courage is when you make a change,
And you keep on living anyway
You keep on moving anyway
You keep on giving anyway
You keep on loving anyway
I guess the highlight of my whole summer is when I jammed my fingers in the car window after class today. & how did that happen? well, I was about to close the door bc i opened it too wide, and the window happened to be opened and I put my fingers in the open window unknowingly. my mom decided to close the window and then I told her, OPEN THE WINDOW! but she was like, WHAT HAPPPENED, so embarassingly loud, and i just had to throw my book in the car and open the window. DAMN, that was painful.
7.07.2008, 6:29 PM

confession# 1273893240234
I'm young, therefore I am naiive and I trust people way too easily. I may seem like I don't care, but really I do care. Yes, I appear emotionless, but you just don't see it. Yes, I'm quiet, but you haven't met my other side. My worst fear is backstabbing and lies, Real eyes realize real lies; it's even scarier than SPIDERS (and spiders are deathly). I don't believe in competition. And everyone has a good side, even though we can't see it. But why are there so many consequences? I feel betrayed by my very best friend. I'm still giving him the benefit of the doubt because i don't know if it's true. But really, what is the use of all of this competition? Really, in a course of a lifetime, does it really actually matter?
7.06.2008, 10:16 PM

Emptiness and confusion
So this weekend definitely flew by at the speed of light.
and tomorrow we're back to the beginning, damn. the end of the weekend is always depressing, but it's especially depressing htis week, partially bc the swimming olympic trials ended. =(
and my mom of course wouldn't let me watch the last day of olympic trials, and it was basically my last hour of non stress. sometimes, i think why do i put up with all of this. i just keep quiet and pretend everything's alright, but pour my thoughts out to this, and stay up late just talking with jonathan and christine. sometimes, i can't take it. why the hell do i need tutor every single day?! i want to do this on my own. but in the end, my mom keeps saying, fine, do what you want, blah blah blah, but you're goign to regret. you just can't get a B , michelle. DAMNIT, it's not your grade. and maybe this is why i don't tell her everything, but then again she gets mad if i don't tell her what's going on.
i dont know. lost, confused, hopeless.
i don't blame my mom, i don't blame anything. it's just frustrating.
7.03.2008, 10:55 PM

DONE, for 3 days at least..
ONE CHEM-FREE WORRY FREE WEEKEND. EXCITING! but really , no plans, so not all that exciting.
89 + 1.3, finally, that work pays off.
OLYMPIC TRIALS make me smile. :] and up up & away, this weekend is going to fly by.
To-do's
FIND a wii fit
start that stupid book
catch up
make last minute plans
and chill !