ǝʌıʇɔǝdsɹǝd ɹnoʎ ǝƃuɐɥɔ ✡
Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore
My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
about

Lives for: the good times, and even the bad times. Life has its up and downs but chatting it up or down, youtubing, talking on the phone 24/7, EATING, tiVOing, or just hanging in can blow all of my worries away, most of the time anyways.
loves: LATE NIGHT FREEE PHONE CALLS with the usual: therapy for the bad days and laughing all night long for the good days
THE THINGS I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT: my bffod! MICHIGAN! south coast plaza, GTALK, AIM, Tivo, pasta at pastadena, hobos--any kind, inside jokes all the time, late night talks, early morning naps in class, song lyrics, not paying attention, BLAZERS, winding roads, picturesque scenes, fresh and easy, corner bakery cafe!, coffee brea, starbucks, ted baker, anthropologie, j. crew, madewell, CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE, CHOCOALTE COVERED ALMONDS, pink paper, green paper, magnolia blossom shower gel, hand crafted cards, homemade chocolate chip cookies!, the o.c., ORANGE COUNTY OVER LA COUNTY!, CANADA! big text messaging!
3.25.2009, 10:57 PM

you make life worth living for,
ahh i miss you, c all the wya on the other side of the world.
i'm in love with this video
3.24.2009, 10:26 PM

And so, just like a cycle, likes in f451, it happens again. it's a daily routine. it's the inevitable truth. YES mom, i'm aware that my gpa is the "most important thing" and that my GPA sucks. just flat out sucks. top 10% of my class? ok, not good enough. i'm sick of it, i keep telling you, it's my life, it's my gpa. everyday, the same lecture. i don't understand how you could be so heartless. do you think all of this is helping? my parents do not support me. well finicially, yes, but other than that, no. it's either: yes michelle you can do this, or no, and don't even think about asking me again. it's either: go do work or why the hell are you watching tv when your ap's are in 1 1/2 months?!
okay, i think i can control and take care of myself, because isn't that what i've been doing ever since like i was 6? who took care of me? not you. only financially. my babysitter was the one i talked to all the time. my bff, chloe, who's in australia, was the one i lived with. my fab four crew, are the reasons wh i live.
And i wonder soetimes, what am i to do? why go through so much trouble? why put up with everything. but then again, why not?
I live for the good times and the bad times. You know, we'll always make it through. We stick together -JCRM (=
3.17.2009, 11:06 PM

ahsdjkasjdas,
why do i keep on running away,
i 'll blog more tomormorning
i do keep running away, from what's in front of me , and it kills me some days, but i gotta live with it.
sometimes, when there's just too much drama, you just gotta tune out and live with it. whatever, you realize!
I realize that what i say, well it's just a bunch of crap. It's just a bunch of talk and talk is cheap these days.
The power of music, music to me is the world. really, truly, it is. without it, what is life? everything about it is just this swirl of colors, just a blast of how true and pure everything is.
MOCA: my inspiration. museum of contemporary art this spring break (= i promise i will live there. lol. if that's possible, which it isn't.
i'm starting to get my act together, really i'm trying so hard. haha but i do get distracted, really easily, but i hope my motivation can conquer it.
I forgot to blog about the past weekend, but it was way fun and it all happened at walnut hell school, big shocker there. there was this creepy stalker lady that kept following us around, not really, but we saw her at the lunch tables (M.A.A.) and then we went to the village and ate starbuck's, and when we go back to the theatre to watch sound of music, there she is! in my seat! and we stuffed all our backpacks in my tiny locker. hahahaa. and ashley and andrew, they're the cool kids that just keep on getting cooler (=
AND sunday was super fun with angela at the recital. hmm, i love that girl!
3.15.2009, 10:28 PM

THIS WEEKEND WAS PACKED. the highs and lows, seriously!
maybe i'll blog tom,
but so far, angela has totally made my day! she's a freaking cheerleader at recitals ;)
3.10.2009, 10:59 PM

i love chatting with the cool kids,
Darren says:
yo
Darren says:
micHELLE
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
YO
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
whatsup
Darren says:
nmm u
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
;D
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
call 18664365711
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
to vote for american idol!
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
woohoo!
Darren says:
lol
Darren says:
that number doesnt look sfe
Darren says:
safe*
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
lolll it is. i called a bakillion times.
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
AHAHA on 102.7 today
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
since, there is a top 13 for idol this yr, they tried doing 1866IDOLS13 and it turned out to be a phone sex line
Darren says:
seriously?
Darren says:
imma call
Darren says:
thats it?
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
LOL
Darren says:
lol
Darren says:
i heard it this morning too
Darren says:
hey
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
HAHA YOU ACTUALLY CALLED
Darren says:
haha!
Darren says:
ok
Darren says:
ill call idol right now
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
call 1866IDOLS11 to vote for ADAM LAMBERT
Darren says:
i jus called
Darren says:
it says thanks for voting
Darren says:
-silent-
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
yup
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
and then you redial again
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
and vote
Darren says:
and thanks for voting
Darren says:
then i hang up agian/
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
good job
Darren says:
i called so many times for u
Darren says:
while iw as on the toilet
Darren says:
say tahnks
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
HAHAHAA MUCHO THANKS
Darren says:
urwelcome
Darren says:
my phone says urwelcome
Darren says:
so does the toilet
Darren says:
=)
Darren says:
permit test
Darren says:
ahah
Darren says:
=(
Darren says:
im sorta whatever abt it now dude
Darren says:
i dont even drive everywhere we go
Darren says:
anyways
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
haha but you will soooooon in august
ELLEHCIM NIL says:
haha
Darren says:
not really
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:06:26 PM): so do you win at see saw?
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:06:28 PM): JKJK
eycjhu24 (9:07:59 PM): haha yes
eycjhu24 (9:08:01 PM): im the winner
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:09:31 PM): the fat winner
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:09:32 PM): (=
eycjhu24 (9:12:58 PM): im going to baskin robbins!
eycjhu24 (9:13:04 PM): bye!
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:13:18 PM): why do you always go to baskin robbins?
eycjhu24 (9:13:23 PM): cuz on tuesdays
eycjhu24 (9:13:24 PM): its cheap
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:13:34 PM): ice cream will make you win at seesaw more
eycjhu24 (9:13:37 PM): good
eycjhu24 (9:13:41 PM): i want to win
eycjhu24 (9:13:43 PM): im a winner
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:14:19 PM): and also, you will not get a girlfriend this way
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:14:22 PM): or boyfriend
eycjhu24 went idle at 9:23:44 PM.
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:29:49 PM): ADAM LAMBERT IS GOING ON SOON
eycjhu24 returned at 9:44:26 PM.
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:44:45 PM): ayy
eycjhu24 (9:44:54 PM): adam labert
eycjhu24 (9:44:56 PM): lambert
eycjhu24 (9:44:59 PM): is a gay jewish boy
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:45:04 PM): aww dont be hating
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:45:09 PM): just cause he sings way better than you
eycjhu24 (9:45:22 PM): yeah
eycjhu24 (9:45:23 PM): and he's gay
eycjhu24 (9:45:25 PM): im jealous
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:45:37 PM): you have ice cream nad he doesn't
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:45:44 PM): whatd you order, see saw boy?
eycjhu24 (9:45:50 PM): i ordered
eycjhu24 (9:45:52 PM): adam
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:47:26 PM): DONT eat him until i get to meet him!!
eycjhu24 (9:47:59 PM): im gonna eat him
eycjhu24 (9:48:11 PM): sprinkle some hot fudge on him
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:49:28 PM): NOOO =(
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:49:41 PM): don't eat him
eycjhu24 (9:58:46 PM): HI
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:58:56 PM): call 18664365711 in like 2 min!!
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (9:58:59 PM): HIIIIIIIII
eycjhu24 (9:59:30 PM): hai
eycjhu24 (9:59:31 PM): HAI
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (10:04:44 PM): are you voting?
eycjhu24 (10:09:30 PM): haha you so funny
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mIchELLE x0 xlIN (10:47:48 PM): ERIC!!
eycjhu24 (10:47:58 PM): MICH
eycjhu24 (10:48:18 PM): no way...
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (10:49:16 PM): haha je suis tres happy
eycjhu24 (10:49:45 PM): =(
eycjhu24 (10:49:47 PM): haha
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (10:51:31 PM): are you tres hapy?
eycjhu24 (10:51:39 PM): i am quattro happy
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (10:54:52 PM): doesn't quatro mean 4?
eycjhu24 (10:54:58 PM): yeah cuz you said tres
eycjhu24 (10:54:59 PM): which means 3
eycjhu24 (10:55:01 PM): hahahahaha
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (10:55:28 PM): AHAHAHAA
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (10:55:30 PM): took me a while
eycjhu24 (10:56:09 PM): kekekeke
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (10:57:43 PM): what does kekekekeke mean
eycjhu24 (10:57:54 PM): just a funny laugh
mIchELLE x0 xlIN (10:59:42 PM): haha is it for cool kids like you?
eycjhu24 (11:00:07 PM): yeah
eycjhu24 (11:00:14 PM): but you can use it too since you are cool
it's been awhile, and i've been lazy. niiiiiiiight,
sometimes things turn for a change. what could have been will never be, it's that'sok. you just keep on going in this messed up world.
3.04.2009, 10:39 PM

I WANT MY LICENSE SO BADD, so bad.
god, it really just sucks. i want some things so bad, like A's, my license, to visit my bff in australia who has lost her home to the fire, that it just hurts. it hurts. it really does.
and then what makes me so mad is that i have such high hopes, and of course the higher your hopes are, the harder you fall, and the harder it is to get up.
WHY Is my mom so BIPOLAR?? and you do not know the definition of bipolar til you meet mymom. i refuse to eat anything she makes and i refuse to talk to her. WHAT IS WRONG??!! SERIOUSLY, i have an A in AP Chem, i never thought i could say that, but i do, yes i do. today was supposed to be HAPPYYYY.
Why aren't DMV offices open on SATURDAY??!! i need to get my permit on 3/28!! this sucks.
and yea, life is unfair, but does EVERYTHING have to go wrong.
i could tell you the details of our fight, the details of how i feel so hopeless,
but what's the point. i don't give a flying fadoodle and she sure doesn't.
i mean it when i say that my parents have just provided my financially. really, they have. they don't care, at least they don't show it. and that's what counts. if i rant, they criticize. if i don't rant and look solemn or not happy or sad, they'll say what's wrong, then i tell, then they criticize. it's like a neverending cycle.
I HAVE AN A IN AP CHEM!
3.02.2009, 3:29 PM

FUCK is the theme today, no not FCUK, but
!@#$!@#$ everything, seriously
Irony: chalew, my eng teacher said that today. are teachers allowed to do that? I don't think so. i shoulda recorded it and got her fired!! and she always uses that PATHETIC excuse that her comp ate our grades. ok, dont you think that excuse is getting kinda old?
B's on everything. GOD, i need to get my act together.
REWIND REWIND REWIND, everything was a mistake
a big fat mistake that has F's written all over it.
how ironic.
and i love jesse mccartney songs (=