ǝʌıʇɔǝdsɹǝd ɹnoʎ ǝƃuɐɥɔ ✡
Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore
My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
about

Lives for: the good times, and even the bad times. Life has its up and downs but chatting it up or down, youtubing, talking on the phone 24/7, EATING, tiVOing, or just hanging in can blow all of my worries away, most of the time anyways.
loves: LATE NIGHT FREEE PHONE CALLS with the usual: therapy for the bad days and laughing all night long for the good days
THE THINGS I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT: my bffod! MICHIGAN! south coast plaza, GTALK, AIM, Tivo, pasta at pastadena, hobos--any kind, inside jokes all the time, late night talks, early morning naps in class, song lyrics, not paying attention, BLAZERS, winding roads, picturesque scenes, fresh and easy, corner bakery cafe!, coffee brea, starbucks, ted baker, anthropologie, j. crew, madewell, CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE, CHOCOALTE COVERED ALMONDS, pink paper, green paper, magnolia blossom shower gel, hand crafted cards, homemade chocolate chip cookies!, the o.c., ORANGE COUNTY OVER LA COUNTY!, CANADA! big text messaging!
5.27.2009, 11:27 PM

HELLO WORLD!
spinning in circles
a blur
a second
blink
and it's all gone,
except
for that
one little thing
the one little
memory
5.25.2009, 8:58 PM

have you ever wondered: "why me?" what have i ever done to deserve this punishment?
you wonder why it seems like some people just have it so damn easy. like everything will fall into place for them. like you have to work so damn hard for this one little thing, and then it's just so easy for them. but really. screw them. screw them. when they get to reality, then what, huh? They can't stand up on their own two feet. I really don't mean this in a "i'm superioir to you" kinda way. But really, it frustrates the HELL OUT OF ME! because why is everything SO DAMN HARD for me?? I'm sure others feel the same way, but if you've heard my stories, you'll see. but sometimes, I really don't have it all that bad. But why must we all go through so much PAIN? Well without pain, what is the meaning of life? Without obstacles to constantly push you down, how do we learn? Yea, I sure as hell want the easy way out, but in the end, do I want that easy way out?
It's frustrating.
WEEKEND RECAP:
Branch level: 106 choose 35. Regionals, up one more level. 85 people. choose 25. I feel like Kris Allen, I don't even deserve my spot. I hardly ever practice
Cousins over
Good times with the four for one sundae
but then you never give up on hope...
"he's just not that into you" is such a cuteee movie!!
5.19.2009, 11:24 PM

VOTE VOTE VOTE ADAM LAMBERT FOR IDOL '09!
18664365701! 03! 05!
5.12.2009, 10:24 PM

done, well kinda sorta.
HM.
let's build a time machine and take that test again.
hm well jesse mccartney can flip today upside down! =)
AGHHHHH
wel, still can't catch a break
all of this shit won't end til graduation day. june 2011, fast forwad button please?
5.03.2009, 1:40 PM


OMGOMGOMGDLANDDLANDDLAND! ok, so i'm sick. like coughing and everything. yea, i have the swine flu. i didn't go to school on friday! WOOO! and then i toook the SAT's the next morning. OMG i ran out of time. that's just great. so i decide to take the chem too, and then yea i'm cancelling my score. i didn't even finish my math and i had 10 extra minutes for chem and i didn't even study for chem. WTF.
and then we go to the happiest place on earth. and seriously, it is the happiest place on earth! haha we waited an hour for splash mountain, but it was totally worth it! and then we go to splash mountain 3 times in a row at night, when the lines are so much shorter. we used 3 fast passes. HAHAHA. FUN FUN FUN! and then space mountain of course, but only once since the line was so effing long and then they weren't distributing fast passes. oh my, so many people. AUTOTOPIA with the twins, wooo! how cute right? and then indianajones had to break down. -_- that ride is so unreliable. hahahhaa lol.
so when everyone left, it was back to reality. hm. so i washed the dishes and did 2 loads of laundry. fun right, i kno. it's like if i have a bit of fun, i have to get 100000x worse punishment. thanks, mom, thanks. but i'm not complaining, it was totally worth it.
I was sick, took my SAT's, built a bridge and got over it, cancelled those scores, went to disneyland, screamed like crazy on roller coasters, with half of my voice, came home, played with the twins again this morning, did the dishes, watched tv while doing the dishes, did the laundry twice, got yelled at for baking lemon tart, baked lemon tart, couldn't eat lemon tart, felt depressed about not being able to eat lemon tart. and here i am.
