ǝʌıʇɔǝdsɹǝd ɹnoʎ ǝƃuɐɥɔ ✡
Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore
My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
about

Lives for: the good times, and even the bad times. Life has its up and downs but chatting it up or down, youtubing, talking on the phone 24/7, EATING, tiVOing, or just hanging in can blow all of my worries away, most of the time anyways.
loves: LATE NIGHT FREEE PHONE CALLS with the usual: therapy for the bad days and laughing all night long for the good days
THE THINGS I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT: my bffod! MICHIGAN! south coast plaza, GTALK, AIM, Tivo, pasta at pastadena, hobos--any kind, inside jokes all the time, late night talks, early morning naps in class, song lyrics, not paying attention, BLAZERS, winding roads, picturesque scenes, fresh and easy, corner bakery cafe!, coffee brea, starbucks, ted baker, anthropologie, j. crew, madewell, CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE, CHOCOALTE COVERED ALMONDS, pink paper, green paper, magnolia blossom shower gel, hand crafted cards, homemade chocolate chip cookies!, the o.c., ORANGE COUNTY OVER LA COUNTY!, CANADA! big text messaging!
9.24.2008, 3:48 PM

cause i can hardly see what's in front of me these days,,,
dizzier and dizzier i get until i can taste the salt. complications, and more complications. is it really that hard to set one day of a whole entire year for someone? Really, is it that hard?
Things really couldn't get any worse when my mom mentions she has to do an open house on the 27th! And then she had the nerve to ask me that she can talk to one of my friend's mom into sending us to the theater. REALLY, who does that? NO ONE. it's rude. i give up in trying to plan this. in the end, we're just all way too busy people with uptight asian parents. and NO ONE WILL PICK up. really, i'm sick of trying. i'm sick of trying to ignore everything, because i in the end, it doesn't even matter what you thought. in fact, i just paused there and talked to my mom and what happened? she blew up at me. we kind of blew up at each other. i really don't care anymore. at one point, it mattered to me. because we are the best of friends, but we just show up at school, laugh laugh laugh, do stupid things, complain and make fun of school, but everything goes wrong. with everything, i'm sick of even trying. i'm just plain SICK of EVERYTHINGG. eveyrthing;s like clashing and mixing but it's like the horribly bad clash kind of clash.
and today's my brother's birthday which makes this the saddest thing of all. and i'm not even typing this really for any reason, just for venting's sake.
Happy birthday, bryan.
why?
p.s. the first time i tried to upload that pic, it failed. this is really telling me something now. or maybe my internet just sucks. yea, my internet just sucks